Saturday, October 2, 2010

cravings.

today I am 13 weeks and 3 days. I told myself I wasn't going to update about my pregnancy all the time, but I really wanted to talk about this today.

I will try and set the background for you. it's been a tough semester. internship has been a huge struggle for me. From trying to take care of my family responsibilities, developing lesson plans, trying to get enough sleep in order to function, and trying to have a smile on my face and not be cranky was really starting to take a toll on my nerves. Every morning I woke up feeling like today would finally be the day I would break.

On my lowest day, I fell to my knees and prayed to God to fight these demons for me and to give me peace. I was in so much physical pain from the cramping I am still having, no sleep, and extreme hunger that I couldn't take it anymore. I was tired of dealing with it on my own so I gave it all to God. The God of all Mercies and Comfort. 

I went to bed that night and slept better than I have in months. I didn't wake up with hunger pains at 1:30 that morning. I actually slept through the entire night. I gave it all to God and He blessed me. I said, "God, I trust you. I give it all to you" and He gave me peace. The weekend was even productive. I got some lesson plans written, cleaned the house, and even got to spend the afternoon with my family. 

and then the beginning of the week was here. I decided to stay late at school on Monday to grade papers and organize some things for the next day. I think about 4:30 my husband called to let me know that our house had been broken into and that all of our electronics had been taken. our tv, my husband's PS3, my professional camera, my computer, my back up computer, everything. since all these things were taken from us, I do not know when I will have good belly pictures for you. :(

Blessing Number 1 - we got a new front door.
Blessing Number 2 - who needs those things anyways? God revealed to me, once again, that nothing of this world is promised. Let me repeat that.NOTHING of this world is promised. 
Blessing Number 3 - We have no idea when this person broke in so my question is... did I really choose to stay at school late?
Blessing 4 - Even though I didn't have a computer for a few days, my husband surprised me with an upgraded version of the one that was stolen. 

I was so miserable before this happened. I never considered myself a materialistic person, but after this event, I realized how much I truly relied on our possessions. 

I was restless. I was thirsty. I hungered, I craved. I became complacent and allowed things of this world to control me. God heard my cry and calmed me.

Needless to say, its been an overwhelming week.
Starting tonight is the beginning of a crazy week.
Tonight is my sissy in laws bachelorette party.
it's my last week of my first placement.
14 week appointment on Tuesday.
Sissy in law is getting married Friday.
My niece is getting married Saturday. 
I know His love is never ending, but I wonder how this week is going to go for us.

Random Statement: My belly button is starting to poke out at 13 WEEKS!!!!! 
gaining more energy because I'm getting more sleep
still have a nasty dry nose and sometimes it's hurts to breath :(
I am already feeling the baby kicking/punching. 
I know the difference between gas pains and movement 
and it's definitely NOT gas pains.
I have now had 3 people tell me they think we are having a boy :)
My chest looks like a road map.
3 weeks til we find out the sex of the baby.

What do you think it will be? Boy or Girl?

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