Thirsty Thursday: Part 2

At the age of 16 I had three knotches under my belt and I started to spiral

I had no respect for my mother for leaving my father

I had no respect for her cheating

I had no respect for her talking bad about my dad

I had no respect for my dad not being there

but I did have respect for him taking a job out of state to provide for me sister and me

My mother and I got into a fight one night and I became so enraged that I threw a remote at her head

I was booked and spent about 3 hours in solitary

instead of going to jail I was sent to anger management

Even though I was smoking marijuana and partying I wasn't into alcohol. It just wasn't my thing.

I got into a really bad car accident one night while racing a boy down the street. I had a couple bumps and bruises but was basically unscathed.

This was the first time I felt like God was real because it could have been a lot more serious.

but my partying went to another level when I was introduced to cocaine. I didn't really like it, but I wanted to feel numb 

My pot smoking, alcohol drinking boyfriend drew the line there and broke up with me that very next night.

After that I fell into a really deep depression... like the not eating, sleeping all the time, in my room all night, screaming, crying fits you only see in the movies. I remember one night my boss sent me home because I was so hysterical over the situation.

I started counseling and stopped doing drugs, and once again things started looking up.

We all know that didn't last long.

Started hanging out with a girl from school over Spring Break and went to a college party where I met my NEXT boyfriend, and he introduced me to alcohol, but that didn't last long because he was verbally abusive towards me

Went off to college, and did well the first few months, but I still allowed myself to be used by so many men....

In October of my freshman year I ran into an old boyfriend (the one that would be my future husband) and he made me realize how I was living was going to ruin me. 

I stopped partying, I stopped drinking, I stopped drugging and I thought things were looking up, I felt normal again.

My boyfriend and I started dating again that month and around Thanksgiving that year found out we were pregnant.

My entire life I wanted someone to love me uncondtionally, I wanted someone to love me for all my faults so of course I was over the moon because that child was going to finally fill the void. 

We decided to do the right thing and got married in January 2006, the holiest day there was. 

So there I was, married and pregnant... and a sophmore in college. 

yeah, that meshed well together.... =/

read part 3 here

Thirsty Thursdays: Part 1

You're probably thinking "Why does she always refer to alcohol on her blog? Isn't she a Christian?"

Ha, well yes, my friend, I am a Christian and I do in fact strongly dislike alcohol.

But, I love idioms too (does that fit here?)

I'm limited in my vocabulary skills, sorry.

I found this girl after goofing around on the computer and was completely blessed by her testimony.

Since I plan on sharing mine this fall it wouldn't hurt to shoot for a dry run.

So here we go, buckle up. It's ugly

Had a great childhood until my parent's divorce. I was seven and my sister was four.

Mom says dad had to "go away", but still, to this day, no one will talk about it.

I felt so unlovable, I felt abandoned

My mom would bad mouth my dad to me. At the time, I was too young to really understand what was going on. But as an adult, how could you do that to a child? What was going on in your mind that convinced you it was okay to burden a child with adult situations?

She soon started dating a man who would later become my step dad. My dad was still "away" and they were both still married, even her boyfriend was still married. 

Before my family broke apart we were involved in a teeny little southern Baptist church, but after the divorce, my mom was guilted into leaving. So I've always been hesitant to get back into church. I felt back then, and sometimes still today think there is too much judgment in the church.   

Elementary school was hard for me, socially. Every other weekend was spent at my grandparents house, and since I never knew where I was going to be, I couldn't go to sleepovers, or birthday parties. Holidays were spent traveling instead of actually getting to enjoy that holiday with my family.

 junior high was even worse. I did make one friend however that later introduced me to marijuana in ninth grade. Finally, for that moment I didn't have to think about my family problems, I could just relax and be free. Through this friend I met a boy and lost my virginity at the age of 14. He broke up with me two weeks later.

(wow, this is a lot harder than I thought)

In tenth grade, we went our separate ways and I was in a school where I met a lot of good people. I started dating a boy who wouldn't allow any of my previous behavior into his life. He was such an encouragement to me and soon my partying days were over. I still wasn't in church, but we would attend youth group on Wednesday nights along with a lot of other kids from our school. I really thought things were looking up. I still had some misgivings about this church and the students attending, because they seemed so fake, but I was learning about Jesus and I was adding dimension to my life, so I was happy. 

About a year and a half into our relationship, we had run our course. He started dating another girl and I started hanging around my old friends again. My friends introduced me to another boy (my future husband) and two weeks into our relationship we were saying I love you, and it got serious.... quick. I was screaming for attention, and I was willing to take whatever kind of attention I could get. 

I had so much anger inside me and I couldn't really understand why. I just knew it was there.

read part 2 here

Happy Homemaker Monday #6

This week I am linking up with Sandra at Diary of a Stay at Home Mom! It's always so fun to see what other Mamas are doin' on their Mondays! Here's a glimpse of my Monday! 

The Weather:::

tis a bit chilly this morning, and I love it! 64 Fahrenheit and it's not supposed to get above 81 so I'm a happy girl. sunny skies all day!!  

On my reading pile:::

I really wish I could think of something to replace this section with because, come on, I don't read.... sad, I know :( 

On my tv:::

the eldest doesn't have school today due to report card day so I probably won't be watching much of anything.

On the menu for this week:::

Monday - sketti and rolls

Tuesday - chicken bacon sandwiches onion rings and white peas

Wednesday - meatloaf, mashed taters, and broccoli

Thursday - leftovers

Friday - patty melts, homemade fries, broccoli

Saturday - lemon chicken, rice, and green beans

Sunday - crock pot chicken spaghetti and salad

On my to do list:::

pay bills

laundry

pick up bathrooms

pick up kitchen

make beds

phone calls 

report card meeting

What I am sewing, crocheting, knitting or creating:::

still workin on that ole' blanket. I don't think I've touched it in two weeks

Homemaking Tips:::

this isn't really a homemaking tip, but if you aren't sleeping (like me) then try melatonin as a sleep aid. I just haven't been able to get to the store yet.

On my Camera:::

I call this masterpiece "pure shock" lol

she has my heart :)

Looking around the house:::

Jake Saves Bucky is on the big girl!

dishwasher is goin'. 

kitchen desperately needs to be tidied.

  

On my prayer list:::

Awaken Montgomery starts Oct. 5 and I can't wait! 

Bible verse, Devotional:::

I'm stealing this from a previous post because I love it so much!

 Genesis 22:15-18  Then the angel of the Lord called again to Abraham from heaven.  “This is what the Lord says: Because you have obeyed me and have not withheld even your son, your only son, I swear by my own name that. I will certainly bless you. I will multiply your descendants^[a] beyond number, like the stars in the sky and the sand on the seashore. Your descendants will conquer the cities of their enemies. And through your descendants all the nations of the earth will be blessed—all because you have obeyed me.”

Love God Greatly

I have been unbelievably blessed this evening. Even though I’ve already posted something today I feel incredibly led to share this with you.

Since kindergarten recognition, Hannah has prompted we start a family bible reading time, every night.

Hannah started this.

Hannah wanted this.

Because the baby goes to bed so soon after dinner, some nights it’s just easier to read to Hannah right before bed.

We’ve read one chapter a night since we started, at this rate it will take us a year to finish the entire Bible.

Tonight’s chapter, Genesis 22… Where Abraham’s faith is tested.

Genesis 22:2-3 “Take your son, your only son—yes, Isaac, whom you love so much—and go to the land of Moriah. Go and sacrifice him as a burnt offering on one of the mountains, which I will show you.” The next morning Abraham got up early. He saddled his donkey and took two of his servants with him, along with his son, Isaac. Then he chopped wood for a fire for a burnt offering and set out for the place God had told him about.

I don’t see anywhere in those verses where it says Abraham questioned God. Nowhere does it say that God gave Abraham a reason. He just simply obeyed.

Genesis 22:9-10  When they arrived at the place where God had told him to go, Abraham built an altar and arranged the wood on it. Then he tied his son, Isaac, and laid him on the altar on top of the wood.  And Abraham picked up the knife to kill his son as a sacrifice.

Not only did Abraham obey God, he did exactly what was asked of him.. Not what he THOUGHT God wanted him to do… It doesn’t say anywhere in this verse that Abraham hesitated either.

And this is my most favorite of all:

Genesis 22:15-18  Then the angel of the Lord called again to Abraham from heaven.  “This is what the Lord says: Because you have obeyed me and have not withheld even your son, your only son, I swear by my own name that. I will certainly bless you. I will multiply your descendants^[a] beyond number, like the stars in the sky and the sand on the seashore. Your descendants will conquer the cities of their enemies. And through your descendants all the nations of the earth will be blessed—all because you have obeyed me.”

Because Abraham obeyed without question, or hesitation, he was blessed. How many times do you see a blessing because of your obedience? We are told throughout our journey as Christians that we must wait for God’s timing. God’s timing is perfect. His ways are perfect. To have faith in God is to have faith in his timing. God didn’t say “Because you have obeyed me I will give you all the earthly riches in the land”. He didn’t say “I will give you all the women, drugs, lust, power, money, intelligence”. He simply said “Because you have obeyed, I will give you the desires of your heart”. This is my absolute my favorite verse out of tonight’s chapter because our hearts desires are so simple. For me it’s to be a godly woman – WHATEVER it takes. (as soon as I wrote that I heard a small voice just whisper one word, “patience”)

It speaks so deeply to me that a father could sacrifice his ONLY child. I know that if I were in Abraham’s situation, I most certainly would have disobeyed God. I’ve already lost one child, I sacrificed that child unwillingly for the kingdom of God. I couldn't imagine losing another, especially by my own hand. But our miscarriage made me stronger, it made me a better mother, a better wife, a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend because I was able to empathize with other women on a much deeper level. It’s added so much depth to my testimony, and what my faith in God has brought me through. Not faith in my money, or my husband (even though I have tremendous faith in him), or anything with worldly value. Then and only then did I realize that God truly giveth and and He taketh away. I guess a thought along those lines is what crossed Abraham's mind. A peace beyond measure.

To know that Abraham was about to take the life of his only child must have been terrifying for him, but he obeyed anyway.

How many times do we obey God without question?

How many times DO we question when we are called to obey?

What blessed me this evening was the discussion after our reading.

My child gets it, y’all.

She understands obedience

She is pretty good about not whining when asked to do homework

Or turning off the tv for dinner

Or bedtime

Naptime is another story

She doesn’t whine about our dinner menu (because she knows if she does her Friday night menu is out the window)

She does these things because she’s been taught that if she obeys there will be reward. Not necessarily at the end of the week, or at the end of the month, but she knows it’s coming. Whether its intrinsically or extrinsically motivated isn’t a concern to me right now.

The Lord spoke to me this evening, and as usual, it was a simple message. Obey and be blessed.

Don’t you love a simple message?

Until next time,

Love God Greatly!

thursday throwback

This is my thursday throwback picture

two years ago I was somewhere around 12 weeks pregnant

boy, do I miss those pregnant days

yes, Im in the hubbies undies

yes, I'm in our old house with the yucky nasty doors and lanolium floors :(

baby fever's hit me hard here lately, ladies

I know it'll happen in the Lord's timing

but is it selfish of me to want His timing to be right now?

-Whitney

what are you up to today?

Today's weather is so nice.

August in Alabama is the hottest month of the year.

September/October can't seem to make up their minds.

One day its sweltering and the next its chilly in the mornin' and you get to open the windas in the afternoon. 

and that's what I've chosen to do today.. Open my back door and raise the windas :)

raise? rise? We'll go with raise!

I've got tons to do, but you know me... they won't happen til I'm ready for them to happen. Then I'll hate myself for procrastinating. Happens everyday. When will I learn?

make the beds

fold laundry

meal plan

put dishes away

patiently wait for the iPhone update

(I know I'm not the only one haha)

I'm excited for tonight's dinner. I switched some dinners around because I left something out and I don't feel like going to the store for ONE item. It can wait. Sloppy joes (my favorite childhood sandwich), P-Dubs Mexican Rice Casserole, and green beans just to have a veg, even though we ALL know vegetables don't get along with sloppy joes.

Things We'll do tonight as a Fam-Jam!

go on a walk

watch Jake and the Neverland pirates

try really really hard to work on my blanket

It's the little things in life that make this 'stay at home mom' thing all worth it.
What are you up to today? Errands? dinner out? Church?

I leave you today with my favorite picture of my love and me, just because I can!
Leave a comment!!

Happy Homemaker Monday #5

The Weather:::

its about 84 right now but with partly cloudy skies. it's supposed to rain off and on today. 

Awesomeness of the Week:::

I ordered these spice jars last week and they should be arriving soon. I can't wait to put them to good use

On my tv:::

Unusual Suspects

Money Saving Meals with Sandra Lee (crock pot edition)
Days of our Lives
Dr. Phil

On the menu for this week:::

Monday -  sketti and salad

Tuesday - crock pot cubed steak mashed taters and broccoli (I actually use cube stew instead of cubed steak)

Wednesday - hot chicken casserole and salad

Thursday - leftovers

Friday - dinner out

Saturday - fish sticks, mac n cheese, broccoli (can you tell my 6 year old chose this menu)

Sunday - stroganoff for lunch, sloppy joes, mexican rice and green beans for dinner

On my to do list:::

Laundry, clean bathrooms, make ranch dressing, make SOS Mix
  

What I am sewing, crocheting, knitting or creating:::

same ole blanket 

Homemaking Tips:::

I caught sight of this whilst watching Paula Deen earlier.... when making a multi layer cake, spoon a small amount in each of the pans and once each pan has one dollop. Continue until batter is gone. I'm glad I finally found this because one layer is always a bit bigger than the other. I don't know why I never thought about this before :(

Looking around the house:::

Our mountain of laundry is staring me in the face, but I'm ignoring it. The baby's asleep and so is the lab. I'm hungry, very hungry and all I can think about is spaghetti, but that's supposed to be for dinner once again :(

From the camera:::

Now here's a first.  I haven't taken many pictures this week, so I have none to share today.  Bummer!  

  

On my prayer list:::

Awaken Montgomery is on my mind today. We start our ministry soon... I just pray this is where God wants me. My hubby has a career choice to make today. I just pray this choice will glorify Him. 

Bible verse, Devotional:::

But Moses pleaded with the Lord, “O Lord, I’m not very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.” Then the Lord asked Moses, “Who makes a person’s mouth? Who decides whether people speak or do not speak, hear or do not hear, see or do not see? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go! I will be with you as you speak, and I will instruct you in what to say.”

Exodus 4:10-12

Who knew the Bible could be so straight forward?